Thursday, July 29, 2010

It's me it's me it's me O' Lord, standing in the need of prayer

Hi all,
Sorry, long time in not posting, I know. This week has certainly been a challenge for me.

Dieting has been a yo yo thing for me last week, and also for this week as well. I have had a few setbacks that have frustrated me to no end. As I am writing this, I realize that making good choices even in the midst of my struggles will bring great rewards, so I need to keep that in mind.

I started my mini vacation last Thursday evening the 22nd and on Friday the 23 I cleaned, cleaned, cleaned and organized my room. I felt like my back was sore after it, but it felt really good to get it done. Then on Saturday the soreness increased and I realized that I probably did too much. Sunday it got worse and then by Monday morning (my last day of vacation) I could barely stand up straight. I was in so much pain it was all I could do to get up, eat, use the restroom and then lay down again. UGH!!! I went to the Chiro. earlier that day and got adjusted, which after that I was able to stand up straight and take a deep breath. Ever since then my back has progressively gotten a bit better but I am still in a lot of pain.

So, this is where I am at right now. I am dealing with serious back problems, trying to go to the gym and maintain movement to work out the kinks as well as stay in some sort of shape. I am extremely frustrated right now because for many years my back has kept me from doing what I love (Sports, hiking, standing for long periods of time, etc.). My prayer is that as I do the therapy, my back will begin to heal and I can move forward with my life. Right now I am stuck. Even house work is a challenge. Ugh! I so wanted to start a new painting while I had a break, but that didn't happen because of the pain.

So, here is my plan--I need to get a mechanical desk at work that allows me to either stand or sit (depending on what is comfortable at the time) but in order for me to get this, I have to have permission notes from my doctor. I already received one from my Chiropractor and now am waiting for my physician’s office to fax me theirs. This will help with some of the sublaxation in my back as well as take off a lot of the strain from my lower back. Sigh....hope they will let me have one. My job does not want to get one for me because they are so expensive. Also, I will try and maintain my exercise to 3-4 times a week and hopefully get back on counting my calories again. I do not want my physical issues to bring me down. They can so easily bring on depression and the “feeling sorry for myself” attitude, which I hate!

So, here is to praying away the pain and wishing for a brighter tomorrow. ;-)
On a happier note--I and my greatest friends/former roommates (CAMA) celebrated our birthday's together on Sunday. I was given 2 cake/cup cake/cookie decorating books that I am super excited to try out. I will post pictures hopefully from that fun celebration, as well as post updates on my future attemps and decorating deserts. Yippeee!!! ;-)


  1. Ugh,being in Pain sucks! Hope you feel better soon!

  2. Oh sis Im so sorry your back is so bad. I have never really had back problems until I started my new job. The constant sitting at a computer and leaning over is killing my upper back. Nothing, im sure, to what you are going through but I know the desk work doesnt help us. I hope you can get that desk. Love ya!