Wednesday, November 24, 2010

I Surrender for You are Holy

We are caryers of your presence God. We are a generation marked by Your love. Purified, set apart, holy unto you God. Just one look on your face. Just one glance of your eyes. My whole world is changed--only to see your face. I don’t want to go anywhere without you God, without your presence. Take me into your holy place. Purify our hearts God, purify our hearts. There is no one like you, you are Holy.

It is times like this-the Holiday season- that really makes me reflect on what I want. I am thankful for God. I am thankful for his Holy Spirit. I am thankful that He is a GREAT leader and a wonderful conforter. ;-)

To You I surrender, all of my dreams, everything.

Monday, November 22, 2010

Trading My Sorrows

OK, so I had the most disturbing, gross experience this last week in regards to a match on one of the match making websites that I joined. Ugh! Without going into detail, he turned out to be a major pervert and I have to wonder if he was involved in pornography. Seriously!!! He said all the right things in regards to being a Christian. Said he was born again and very involved in his church. Then he has to pull the “perv” stunt, so I threw him out! See ya SUCKER!!!!!! You sicko!
Anyway, I closed him out and decided to do the nice thing and let him know I was doing that. He ended up sending me multiple texts (which I did not read thanks to my beloved friend protecting me). He showed his true colors right at that moment, which made me feel much better about my decision.

All that being said- I am struggling. It is extremely difficult to go through all of these emotional roller-coasters concerning finding a mate. Part of me just wants to give up and become a hermit for the rest of my life (not really, but sometimes I come close). Anyway, as I was praying this morning, God gave me this phrase "I am crushed but not abandoned". I love that! God is certainly on my side, protecting me on many levels. I could have gone on a date with that guy and something bad could have happened, or I could have been suckered into something horrible but I didn't. THANK YOU JESUS!!!!! So I found this song on YouTube and claiming as mine for the day.

Tuesday, November 16, 2010

Where You Go I Go

You know, we serve an amazing God, would you agree? Many of us go through so many trials and tribulations that it is difficult to remember who God really is, or maybe look back on the promises He gave us a long time ago--or yesterday. Some of us (and I am including myself in all of this) may even blame God for the disasters in our lives, the disappointments and let-downs. We think, "How could He let this happen?", or "Why is He making me go through this?". Its mind boggling isn't it? God is unfathomable. He has depths to him that none of us will ever have a chance to see until we meet him some day.

It is not really until we come face to face with true, raw emotion do we cry out to Him and seek him for answers. We may or may not receive one, who knows. He is All Knowing, Omniscient, Loving and Powerful. He is from Everlasting to Everlasting. He loves us unconditionally. He wants to hear what is on our minds, what is in our hearts. I know this in my mind, but do I really know it in my heart? Yes, there are times where I truly think I understand it a bit more.

I have been reflecting a lot in the last several weeks on where is He in my life? What does he want from me? Where is He leading me? Besides all of the sifting and burning of my soul, the pulling and tugging of my spirit--besides the fact that I don't always understand Him and I am angry with Him at times--I know ONE truth.

I will not compromise. I do not want to make choices out of desperation, but out of wisdom. I will go where you go, I will pray where You pray. No matter how hard it is I want to follow You!

Here is another song by the same vocalist. Amazing. Be ready to be moved people.