So, I haven't blogged in a while. I guess I just haven't felt the umph to do it, although there are so many ideas raging through my mind at different times. I guess, to be completely honest, I have had a lot of things on my heart that I have been wanting to tackle and I keep wondering "Is this something that I can blog about? Can I really be THAT transparent with everyone?" Well, in some way's I think I can.
Today's issues: Hurt, Forgiveness, Trust, SCRAM!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Ever felt like that? Ever wanted to just turn around and run as FAST AS YOU CAN???
Man o' Man! Sometimes I even think it would be easier to just turn my back and run; choosing to not deal with the pain and discomfort of the IN YOUR FACE issue set before you.
In the last 10 years, I think I have faced some of the BIGGEST trials ever! I thought that moving to Colorado would make my life easier because God told me to move. I mean, life in AZ was certainly not a bowl of ice cream. I can tell you that as soon as I stepped into that U-Haul truck, my troubles were beginning, not ending. I certainly have had many blessings, but there have been too many times where my heart has been broken.
I have to wonder about the process after being hurt. For some people, they can just brush it off and move on. For others it becomes a huge issue of doing just that. How do you learn to trust others? I mean, none of us are perfect by any means. We all hurt each other in one way or another, sometimes without realizing it. This brings to mind that verse in Proverbs 3:6-8 "Trust in the Lord with all your heart,
and do not lean on your own understanding. In all your ways acknowledge him,and he will make straight your paths. Be not wise in your own eyes; fear the Lord, and turn away from evil. It will be healing to your flesh and refreshment to your bones.
I know how easy it is to be focused on that pain. To be focused on how that other person hurt me. To be too focused on how I am going to get through this without crumbling. I love that this scripture tells us point blank how it should be. Who should we trust? Jesus! Who should we lean on? Jesus! Who do we keep our eyes on? Jesus! How do we keep from lashing out in our pain? Stray away from evil and keep our eyes on him! Jesus will bless us when we are willing to follow these guidelines, no matter what. THANK YOU JESUS FOR YOUR WISDOM AND YOUR LOVE.
As I am writing this, I see where and how God has been strengthening me and maturing me into the woman He wants me to be. I can only hope that as long as I do not turn my back and run away; keep my eyes on Him, then I will be a stronger person in the long run.